我不是即用即弃的人 I'm Not Fooling You

你问我怎么那么久没有联络你。
是不是把你利用完了就忘了你。
不是的，我说，我忙到天花地坠了。
你说，我的忙就是显示你们很得空啦！

无奈。
无力。
无心解释。

这段日子，我经历了低潮。
我没有跟你说我家里的事。
我没有跟你说我功课的事。
我没有跟你说我活动的事。
我没有跟你说我心里的事。

我不是即用即弃的人，
只是这个时候突然被你这么讲，
我近乎崩溃，但眼睛没有眼泪。

有些事自己知道就够了。
我真的问心无愧。
你的不谅解，我只有遗憾。

You asked me why am I didn't contact you for such a long time.
You asked me whether I have forgotten you after I utilized you.
No, I said. I have been very busy after we met.
You argued that my busy shows that you are free.

I feel lost.
I feel weak.
I feel unwilling to explain more on it.

I experienced a lot difficulties in that period.
My family problems.
My study problems.
My activities problems.
and my own problems.

I'm not fooling you.
Your words hurt me.
I nearly cry, and without tears.

I continue keeping the secrets of mine.
I'm not fooling you.
I regret on your careless.