没事 I'm Fine

青梅竹马来电关心，聊了一个小时。
没事。大哭过后的我已经收拾了心情。
不是坚强，而是习惯了这样的困境。
AhKaren called me and chat for an hour.
I'm fine.
Not because of I'm strong. I've already get used to this situation.

真的，干着急也没用。
与其胡思乱想，不如随遇而安。
这就是我的flexible。
No point to worry much on it.
I prefer to obey the fate rather than thinking much on the uncertainty.
This is my so called "flexibility".

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另一个她不懂我的近况。
Another she does not know about my latest news.

遗憾。
我们如此靠近，她竟然没有发现到我的不对劲。
Regrets.
She does not realize something wrong on me although we are close to each other.

可惜。
我约了她，她以头痛为由缺席，我也没去看她。
Pity.
She absent because of headache and I did not visit her right away as well.

无奈。
我每天更新日记，她竟然不懂我心里在想什么。
Sigh.
I update my news everyday but she does not know about me.

担心。
我怀疑我们之间突然进入了冷静期，我却不懂。
Worry.
I am not sure whether we are escaping each other or not.

委屈。
我非常需要她的支持，她却完全活在她的世界。
Grieve.
I need her moral support but she seems still in her world.

没事。
我习惯了她的习惯、理所当然、以及粗心大意。
I'm fine.
I used to her habits, her way and her careless.

只是
我想给她的惊喜，因为找不到感动的理由，很有可能就因此
没了
But
I wanna give her a surprise
I failed to find touching moment from her

根本
不想
就此
没了
But I am
Not Willing to
Be given up
Here as well