Not Fully Happy but Still Happy

Nearly late entered DSI.
It took me 3 hours to answer the questions.
Not really know the answers but already tried my best to answer them.
Hopefully at least let me pass the paper lar...
Finally settle one paper.

Went to FuManCheng and took luch with Goh, Gab, Lau, Teh and Rose.
Long time didn't meet Rose.
Making jokes together although I am quite tired.
Met our junior. Having fun together...hehehe!

Younger sister sms me and congrates me become a little boy's auntie today.
Really? I told her about my "achievement" finally.
She laughed at me...I laughed at myself also...
Unbelievable to receive the prize...
She says I am like a rubbish bin, ya, sis, you are right...
I'll enter music studio tomorrow...I heard you nearly fall down...

Surprising ChyeeGin enter semi-final for the competition.
Feeling glad although he didn't tell me about this.
Anyway, all the best!!!Hope you reach until the final stage lar...

What else to happy?
Waiting tomorrow's comes lor!!!

(p/s: please do your revision today ok? Tomorrow maybe will spend a whole day ler...)

Worrying Tomorrow's Exam Paper

Finding difficulty in memorize all the definitions and theories.
40 percent. 3 credits.
Adding my head is pain and lack of rest due to the ultimate preparation for the speech contest.

How to welcome tomorrow comes?
Die liao lar...



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不可思议 Unbelievable

很久没有发生的鬼压床再次发生在前天，就是要去演讲比赛的那晚。
彼此纠缠了蛮久的。
有人说那是因为压力。或许吧！我不排除这个可能性。
有人说那是因为睡姿不正确。或许吧！我也不排除这个可能性。
那天妹妹说她那个有阴阳眼的朋友解释那是因为好兄弟在看着你，可是它不懂它压住了你。

毕竟我没有阴阳眼，所以我不懂这是否是真的，可是我愿意相信。
直觉告诉我那晚，“它”，可能是我认识的。
因为我即将去布城，“它”就住在布城。
还有，可能是对于我的演讲比赛的一个“预告”，可能会是很糟糕，也有可能会有出乎预料的收获。
比赛结束了。果然意想不到。

我们也去了那里探望了我们的教授。













然后突然看到Adibah Noor。还有这行里我最崇拜的Senior。还有主动跟我握手的女前辈。

凌晨三点，穿着formal一个人驾摩托出校园。
就要回到家了，突然看到大学城民众礼堂上方突然划了一条光。
是流星吧？这是我人生中第五次看见流星。
保阁亚三（我家）、太平湖、新板(Simpanng)、后廊(外婆家）（没记错的话啦！）

那个当下突然有个想法：
每个人都有自己本身的宇宙，你看到的和我看到的其实是不一样的东西。
每颗流星的滑落，代表的可能是这个人愿望的实现（而不是戏里说的才刚要许下愿望），
也有可能是代表这个人的某些蜕变...

11月5日，不可思议的一整天，也包括前几个小时和后几个小时......

My Speech on the Contest (English Category)

The Celebration of the World Town Planning Day 2008

Date: 5th November 2008 (Wednesday)
Time: 3pm - 5pm
Venue: Putrajaya International Convention Centre (PICC), Putrajaya

Topic: "Our Youth Our Future"
Theme: "Planning for Sustainability"
Duration: 8 minutes

Categories:
Bahasa Melayu
English

Marks given
Content: 40 marks
Language: 20 marks
Presentation: 30 marks
Manner: 5 marks
Bonus marks: 5 marks

First Prize: RM1000
Second Prize: RM 750
Third Prize: RM500
Each participants will be given a souvenir and a certificate

Team:
1. Universiti Teknologi Malaysia (UTM)
2. Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM)
* Another three institutions not joining due to Examination.
_____________________________________________

GREETING

INTRODUCTION
First of all, let's understand what a youth actually is.
Some people say it is the starting point of dealing with stress and conflict
Some people say it is the stage where the changes on biological and psychological happen which will affect the emotions and human body
Some people say it is the stage where the parents started to give freedom
Some people say it is between childhood and adulthood
Some people say it is between 15 to 25 years old
Some people say it is when a person's reproductive organ become able to function
whereas in Malaysia, the Youth Societies and Youth Development Act 2006 stated that "youth" means a person not less than 15 years and not more than 40 years old.

BODY
Why are we promoting "Our Youth Our Future"?
Firstly, it is because the youths are energetic and full of creativity who are able to change the fate of our existing
Secondly, they are the spring of Life, who are at the age of discovery, dare to dream and willing to accept the challenges
They are also the major contributor to the national economic growth, especially for those developing countries like Malaysia, who help in poverty alleviation
Another reasons is they are diverse, who consist of the secondary school and university students, working groups and also young parents, and play different roles in the society
However, they are considered as the vulnerable group because of their uncertainty in making decisions, easily influenced by friends, easily become emotional and rebellious.

The emphasize of the idea on "sustainability" is actually concerning to the capacity to maintain the strengths of the youth to meet current developments and educate or motivate the future generations who are still the children now to fulfill their own needs in the future.

Therefore, to achieve the theme "Planning for Sustainability"
We, as the town planners, are responsible to provide them a safe and comfortable living environment to release their stress and having joy to live in a close neighborhood with open space for social interactions

We, as the town planners, are responsible to provide them the best facilities and services, such as public libraries and learning institutes, to achieve the target of 100% literacy among the youth;
provide efficient transportation systems and health care centers to save their lives;
and inject ICT into the planning to mainstream youth power in order to make them more adaptable to the trend of globalization

We, as the town planners, are also responsible to think of the solutions to control any rapid urbanizations, which would lead to the growth of slums, poverty, pollutions and the gaps with the suburban and rural areas

We, as the town planners, are responsible to conserve both tangible and intangible heritage, in order to generate the sense of belonging and the sense of green among the youth throughout a series of ongoing awareness campaigns and volunteering programs

We, as the town planners, are responsible to promote various types of the local economic activities, or even the regional economic activities for the youth to obtain their desirable jobs and get away from the crimes and drug addicts

Finally, we, as the town planners who are planning for the people, are responsible to invite the youth to participate actively in the planning process and always put them first before a development has started because they are those who will inherit all the impacts, both positive and negative impacts, including the existing issues on global warming, food crisis and oil crisis.

CONCLUSION
In conclusion, the youth should have the privilege to involve themselves in the creation and implementation of any sustainable plans. We should provide them the freedom of speech and freedom of association in order to strengthen their capacity and ability in leading all of us towards sustainable development.


_____________________________________________

I won THIRD prize in English Category!!! What a memorable moment!!!
I know, I am lack of experience and skills in conveying the audience but I am confident my content is the BEST among all the contesters. Hehehe!!!

As a participant, I received a book titled "Malaysia: The Planning of a Nation" which cost RM 150 and a 4GB pendrive as the souvenir!!!
Oh my god!!!
The book was highly recommended by Dr. Ahris and I was thinking to buy a new pendrive because my 512MB pendrive has already spoilt recently...


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Adibah Noor @ WTPD 2008 Night

Met Adibah Noor yesterday in Malam Simfoni Alam, the night to celebrate the World Town Planning Day and World Habitat Day
Unbelievable!!!
My phone credit has expired but still informed Foo through Gab's handphone.
















She sang five songs.
Finally I heard her "Terlalu Istimewa"
Oh my God!!! HURRAY!!!



This is a song written by Adibah Noor to Nurin Jazlin, a children who was dead in an incident. (perhaps someone could tell more about the incident)
I feel very touching when I get to listen to this song.
"Inginku lihatmu dewasa, apa daya, tuhan lebih menyayangimu"

Foo used to learn the sign language from her colleague but I have no chance to learn from her and perform.
No matter how, I hope I could give a helping hand to protect the children's rights, from now, until the end of my life.

Speech Contest

Never think that I could represent UTM and my faculty in Speech Contest.
Tomorrow we have to gather at FAB bus stop at 8am and then spend a day at Putrajaya.

Feeling very nervous now...
Although only have to stand on the stage and talk for 8 minutes only...

再被当作问题帖子 A Problem Post Again

终于佳礼中文把它归类为“问题帖子”了
忘了这是第几次。
版主这样一而再，再而三地阻止我宣传活动，是一种打压言论和媒体自由的实例！
不要紧，就在这里宣传咯！

Failed to promote this activity at Cari.com
Again.
The web master limits my freedom of Speech and Media.
Never mind. I promote here.































































更多详情 Further readings: JERIT

Every Human Has Rights

Every Human Has Rights from The Elders on Vimeo.

Our Youth Our Future: Planning For Sustainability

8th of November is the World Town Planning Day.
Will go to Putrajaya on 5th of November and participate in the Oration (Public Speaking) Competition on this topic.
Headache.
Still lack of the ideas to come out with my speech.
Will be given 8 minutes to finish the speech.
Headache...

Still haven't started my revisions
HEADACHE!!!

<<努力随行>> Together With You

若不是老师突然提起它，我想我会忘了当时的想法和冲动。
老师说，这是一首可以带动大家去关心社会的歌。
是的，我希望歌曲真的不只有爱情故事，如此局限。

当时的感动，是因为看到不同背景的人在努力朝向同一个目标前进。
当时就预测，五个人的开始，是可以逐渐累积一群人，同样地努力朝向那个目标。
我相信，有心的人，不管环境会有多么的恶劣和不如意，他还是会继续做下去的。
对他而言，不做，会对不起自己，会留下遗憾。
于是我抛出一大堆问题，给自己，也给听见的人。
于是我强调：一个有能力的人，不应该自己局限自己，反而应该学会放下，选择开始。
于是我就完成了它，就在会议过后的回家路上和阿婆家。
就在今年的四月初。也就是我还是流浪汉的日子。

这个世界还有很多很多是我们简简单单就可以做到，却是人家妄求一生的事情。
不是要做比较，而是应该去思考为什么不提供援助这个问题。
帮不上忙也没有关系，至少曾经努力过。
“举手之劳，何足挂齿？”是我很喜欢的一句话。
因为我觉得很有型，呵呵呵！

不一定做了一件很大很轰动的事情才算是很有意义。
不一定跑到老远跟陌生的人有了互动才算帮助社会。
平时好好地对待身边的人、做好自己的本份、不陷害别人等等也是很有意义的事情。

老师说，一首歌有快乐和悲伤，才会好听。
就像一个人，有不开心的回忆，才会发现和珍惜开心的部分。
人生本来就不可能一帆风顺的。
或许应该说，一帆风顺的人生会很难找到值得回味的地方。

或许因为我的二十三年充满了悲喜
加上阿婆等人更古老更苛刻的故事
还有旅行阅读聊天无聊时的玩意儿
从而丰富了我的人生观和阅历
从而可以让我非一般看待事物

这是我不经意累积下来的内涵，
我竟然现在才看到（还是要等人家讲才懂那种...）
Walau!


# 写在即将跟一班没有很多共同点和默契的同学完成梦想的前几天。

Without A Focus Point

Foo accident this morning.
I just woke up when she called.
Tried sms to PeiLing and Little Dai.
Received their "ok" reply

Went to Tun Aminah and took my letter.
OK, from World Vision.

Went to K12.
Foo said she's at KTF.
Asked PeiLing and Little Dai to come out and have lunch together.
Little Dai went to K13.
PeiLing and I went to Cengal.
Foo met her Professor.

"Today I do things without a point"PeiLing says.
"Me too."

Later, our point, Foo has come.
Brought her to KTF again.
Brought her to clinic for body check-up
Brought her to the incident place
Sent her back to K12.

Met A Kang and A-Ma.
Asked A Kang whether if Saturday possible for him or not.
Flexible.
Thank you for your flexibility.

Without a focus point.
Even now...

Where's my script for my Wednesday's Oration Competition?
When do I want to start my revision?

为你写首歌？ You Want My Song?

你跟我讲了你和他的故事
希望我为你记载下来

这些故事真的很琐碎
用了我的一个小时
以及三页废纸

我说
它并不感人肺腑
没有一个很强烈的讯息
这样的歌会很没有意思

我说
身为朋友
我不能让你趁机想念他
我不能让你逃不离深渊

可是你说
你希望可以纪念你跟他
你希望身边有他的东西

还是那句
身为你的朋友
我不会答应你的要求
可是
我希望你脱离痛苦

我是应该答应你的，对吗？

不再是梦 Not A Dream Anymore

彼此分享了看法。
他恶补了我的blur blur。
可惜没有录下今天的对话。
不然这历史性一刻，会是如此的美妙。
我竟然有机会跟他合作！！！

成功的话，跟她的距离就会越来越近了。
期待那一天的到来。
不知不觉已经等八年了。
我还可以再等八年的，如果我的生命允许的话......

无论如何，希望当初那颗单纯的心依然不变。
因为它是我最powerful的资产。
它是我的Inner Potential。
比起那些technical的东西，我的Inner Potential是最强的。
原来是这样，我现在才知道，嘻嘻嘻！

两只狗 Two Doggies

I always enjoy bullying these two dogs...hehe...

水、心怡、四叔公 Money, SinYee, 4th GrandUncle

回太平，真的让大舅中了万字。
于是他请我吃了一餐。
阿婆开心到忘了我家的电话号码。
我有点担心。
阿婆的记忆真的越来越差了。

帮大舅去银行进钱。
原来心怡毕业了，现在在银行做工。
UPM. Food Tech.
大舅说那天妈咪去银行，心怡就是跟她提起了我。
原来我们是如此的关心对方。

待她招待完那位顾客后，我走去了她的柜台，kacau她。
她说，我还是那个样子，整天笑嘻嘻的。
是吗？哈！是吧！
互相更新了彼此的近况。
三八妇女组的成员，应该还剩下我跟燕燕还没毕业吧?
她说他遇到了以前那位数学老师。
哈哈！曾经跟我们讨月饼的老师。
她说，待我毕业后，就会常常看到我上报纸了。
是吗？我怎么不懂我有机会上报纸的？
遇到老朋友感觉真的很好。还带点感动呢！
我会记住这份机缘。心怡，加油！我也会的！

听说小偷溜进了四叔公的家。
他绑住了四叔公，还打他的头。
如此对待一位八十多岁的老人家，那个小偷真得很可恶！
四叔公依然昏迷。
被送去了怡保大白鲨（医院）医治。昏迷了至少三天。
听阿婆说，他已经讲不出话了，因为神经线已经被打断了。
没想到四叔公的晚年竟然会是如此。
震撼、无奈、惋惜
阿婆说情形不大乐观，要看初六他是否可以跨过这个劫数。
今天就是初六了。
我也不懂该怎么办......

冰泪草 Grass With Ice Tears

One day I shared with her what I saw early in the morning.
"The Beauty of the Lake in UTM"

She said she had been seen prettier scenery than mine.
"The Grass with Ice Tears in UM"










You've never seen my beauty of the Lake.
I've never seen your beauty of the ice tears.

However, they made us impressed, didn't they?

有泪的记忆 Memory With Tears

终于，回自己的家了。
东西，少了很多。
本来以为不会哭的。
谁知隔壁Autie进来买东西，随口问了一下我读什么科系，就发生状况了。

我还来不及思考该怎么简单回答这个问题，他就抢先说：“不出名的科系”。
“爸，他孩子是医生，我也是医生，不过我是医城市的。”心里咕噜着。
“要读几年？”
“五年。”
“哇，这么久，我儿子也是读五年。”
“读这么久有什么用？” （老爸插嘴）
“不过我儿子没有读Form 6啦，所以今年就毕业了。”
爸，我很给你脸，我没有直接冒出一句：“我本来也不打算读Form 6的，我会搞到今天也是因为他！”
爸，我刚才掉头是因为我哭了，你知道吗？
妈，我睡觉是因为我真的累了，你知道吗？

妹妹回来跟我更新了近况。
我突然冒出一句：“我们终于搬家了。”
妹妹问我你很想搬吗？
答案是矛盾的。
简单来说，没有他的话，那里的记忆应该都是快乐的。
可是若不是因为有他，我想我不会轻易感受到简单的快乐。

收拾心情。坦然面对
儿时的脚踏车不见了
童年的回忆也不见了
少女的书信也烧掉了
的残酷事实

妈咪责怪我以前总是买了一大堆读物
若不是这次的搬迁，我也不会察觉到我其实遗传了妈咪爱买书的嗜好
妈咪也是有一大堆收藏了四十年的电影小说
妈咪，就留下来吧！
我的那些书，不必问我了，眼不见为净，就像我的书信那样，解决掉吧！

本想把这里的每个角落都拍摄下来的
可是每个角落似乎都曾经淋过我的泪水
这么一个有泪的地方，还需要收藏回忆吗？
还是，要像人们失去的恋情一样，不再触摸，不再回去
或许泪痕，会因岁月的侵蚀，渐渐模糊，渐渐消失。

远离伤心地。
重新开始。
会更好。
不是吗？

北上 To The North

等待回家的路上，庆幸没有在巴士抵达前就累倒了。
十一点吧？它是6899。
看了看它的衣服，不知是不是它，曾经只花6个小时就把我送回家。


上了巴士没多久，传了几则短讯给他。
想法很简单，我就要搬了，不懂他有没有兴趣来看看我的阿婆，还有我那间最近才提起的家。
他说他要忙他的论文。他叫我拿照片给他看。他说只要心里想是一样的，那就是一样的。
他说他要收拾心情去考试。他说他没有心情去玩。
我说那种想象是很不真实的。我说我只是突发奇想邀请他。
后来，我没有再游说他，反而跟他说声"加油"！


累到真的睡着了。
凌晨2点多，Cathy传来短讯，吓到了我。
问我那笔钱该怎么办？
考试期间解决掉吧！
虽然我舍不得你们，可是总是该有个了结吧？


朦胧之中来到了Puduraya。
咦？那里换上了新装，可惜我的眼睛真的看不清它的变化......有告示牌了吧？不错不错！


"Butterworth!!!Butterworth!!!"
朦胧之中听到巴士司机喊了很久"Butterworth"
才凌晨四点，别告诉我已经来到Butterworth，不可能吧?
跟他确认了一下，距离我的目的地还很久呢！
原来他要叫醒那些要转巴士到Butterworth的乘客。
叹气。
连马来西亚人都要提心吊胆的巴士服务，怎么可能会吸引到外国游客来马观光呢?


怡保真是一个很美丽的地方。
我看到了妈咪以前教我辨认怡保的那片灯海。
于是我打了通电话给大舅。
大舅说太平正下大雨。
是吗？这里一滴雨都没有耶！
很怀念太平的雨。
希望等下可以淋雨回家。


阿婆已经醒了，坐在客厅等我的门。
“哇，你带水回来了。”
对于卖字花的人如阿婆，“水”既是“财”也。
她认为我的归来会让她中万字。
或许吧！上次我回去，让她中了几十块，她就这样记到现在。


睡了一整天，把三个星期以来累积的疲惫和委屈用一天来好好地填补。
阿婆稍微跟我更新了她的近况。
原来姐姐阿姨表姐她们在开斋节有回来，还搞了一个烧烤会，甚至请来了九叔公他们。
跟阿婆说我那时也是在烧烤，还吃猪肉呢！

然后阿婆交待我要记得还50个碗给观音娘娘。
妈咪花了三十年收藏的碗，我怎么会舍得把它们送出去呢？
而且，那是必须用我赚到的钱来买，所以现在是不行的。
没想到阿婆还记得我的这件事。
阿婆很得意地说，你看，你的事我还记得，不然你就忘记了。

呼！
北上，真的很幸福！
(阿婆特地交待大舅记得买烧肉给我吃，我也不懂该怎么解释，现在的我，是随时都吃得到烧肉的...)

10.30pm Back to My Hometown

Later at 10.30pm I'll go back to my hometown.
It takes about 8 hours to reach.
Now, I am cleaning and tidying my room...
Isyhk!!!

Perhaps will back on Sunday...
Be keep in touch!
Gambateh for your coming Exam!!!

讨厌自己的严格 Hate My Carefulness

明天就要呈交最后两份作业
还在努力中

有关Management的那份
我从今早十点做到现在
还没完成
呼！接近十四个小时了
也不懂自己干嘛这么严格
检查再检查
他在的话一定会气死掉
我竟然还没有完成
甚至
还帮他修补了一些小细节
还有他的语法

有关SIA的那份
还没开始
虽然她今早就传来短讯跟我要
可是我就是没有回复
我还在思考我的部分
明早我会交到你手中的
放心

就是因为自己的严格
差点酿出了祸
他们
差点把我放进黑名单
他们
下学期应该不会找我合作吧？
我的慢
完全是因为我的严格
而不是因为我懒惰

那天BBQ帮他们起火
她称赞我，说我是一个teliti（仔细）的人
愣了一下
是吗？猜想一定是坊间流传了有关我的传闻

为什么我要去鸡婆别人的部分？
为什么我非得要坚持花时间去思考？

讨厌自己的严格
这个学期
我也搞不清楚为什么自己这么严格
要这么严格是需要自信去支撑的
我有吗？
怎么可能有呢？
我到底怎么了？

Happy Diwali 2008

能不能离开那里？ Shall I Leave There?

想离开那里
就像以前我离开那一个那里一样

思路有点乱
他们的身份
一时一样
我有点乱

他们走在最前线
必要时会上报纸
跟权威对抗
为正义斗争
是非之间
我有点乱

我要顾虑太多东西
我无法很坦荡荡拿关刀斩六将
虽然我是一个弱质女子
却很想跟他们站在一起
用尽毕生精力争取些许成果

这条路很不好走
有家庭的人更不好走
要报答恩情的人不能乱走
我不能随便跟着一群我不怎么信任的人一起走

那里的人给不到我些许的安全感
我只感受到很多隐藏的含义，直攻我心

当微笑背后有另一个意思的时候
当我分不清朋友跟工作伙伴的时候
当我厌倦了要常常理性看待事情的时候
能不能让我离开这么一个我不喜欢的地方？

若不是因为没有了其他选择，我是不会逗留的。
我本来就不是一个很会讲话的人。
我本来就不是一个很懂分析的人。
我本来就不是一个敢爱敢恨的人。
我本来就不是一个优秀杰出的人。

可是我依然会关心那里
依然会更新有关那里的消息
必要时我想以个人身份陪伴那里
我不想这样背着一个包袱
一个老早就应该放下的包袱

决定了
明年一月
正式离开
无奈也好
狠心也罢

我希望
找到一份可以让我安心的工作
专注于一个我后来喜欢的科系
陪伴一群我想好好珍惜的朋友
远离因压力而导致的低潮忧郁

我想回归平凡
不想搞太多花样
因为我厌倦了
等待一个模糊的结果
还有提心吊胆的生活

还有啊
求人
不如求己

溏心風暴 之 家好月圓 Songs in Moonlight Resonance

關菊英 - 無心害你


林峰-爱不疚


林峰-爱在回忆中找你

BBQ Day

Received this gift...YEAH!!!

A Day on 24th

Woke up at 9.30am
Oh my god! I missed my studio
We have to conduct peer assessment at 9am
Hurry up enter UTM

Rainy day.
Apologize to both Hamisai and N.
Went to office to pass up a late assignment
Met Kent, Pey and Yong
Met XueYing, YuMin and ShiEn
Went to L50 for the rural talk

Went to K12 to meet XiaoDai, Foo and PeiLing
YuJie was facing a family problem
All of us accompany her to Sri Puteri
Then we went to 24-Hour Mcdonald to update among our latest news.

Went to N's room with Shikin.
N said he is not going to prepare any gift for tomorrow's BBQ.
Sent Shikin to G06 and get her stuff
Sent her to Sri Puteri

Back to home.
Took a nap.
Gab sms telling they havent gone to Pizza.
Met them at Jusco Taman U at 6pm for Pizza.

Foo havent had her dinner.
7.30pm went into UTM and accompany them for dinner.
XiaoDai, Foo and PeiLing.

9.30pm went to studio, BBQ and Management's meeting.
Called Mummy. Papa has surprising me. Feeling a bit touching...
Watched Foo playing her game at 10.30pm.
Watched Moonlight Resonance episod 28, 29, 30 at 11.30pm.

Talked to her about the special gift from me.
Promised her that I'll continue the surprise next year.
She showed me her eBuddy shoutout.

Really? You've cried because I have touched your heart? Why don't you cry in front of me?
Perhaps I can see you cry next year...
I really want to see you cry...in front of me...
Never build a wall between you and me, please...

Met Them Accidentally

Wana go to print my assginment.
Met them accidentally.
Accompany them.

Wondering why they didn't ask me to join.
I am one of the team also.

Never mind.
I tried to persuade myself.
Accompany them until the task has done.

Told him I nearly accident in the afternoon.
Just told him I can't concentrate much.
He says he didn't sleep for the whole day.

I wanna to be cheer up by someone.
Tomorrow will be the assessment day.
I'll try my best to protect all of you.
Even though I maybe the victim in this case...

四月宝宝 APRIL BABY

Suave and compromising. 彬彬有礼、礼让/妥协
Funny and humorous. 有趣、幽默
Stubborn. 固执
Very talkative. 健谈
Calm and cool. 沉着、冷静
Kind and sympathetic. 善良、同情/同理
Concerned and detailed. 关心、细心
Loyal. 忠诚
Does work well with others. 合作
Very confident. 非常有自信
Sensitive. 敏感
Positive Attitude. 正面
Thinking generous. 想法丰富
Good memory. 好的记忆力
Clever and knowledgeable. 聪明、有见识
Loves to look for information. 喜欢探索知识
Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. 能轻易让人开心
Able to motivate oneself and others. 能轻易激励他人
Understanding. 善解人意
Fun to be around. 喜欢到处走动
Outgoing. 乐于社交
Hyper.夸张
Bubbly personality. 乐呵呵的性格
Secretive. 守口如瓶
Boy/girl crazy. 疯狂
Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. 爱好运动、音乐、休闲和旅行
Systematic. 有系统
Hot but has brains. 有脑的发怒

想就这样放弃自己 Thinking To Give Up

这个世界不允许你自作主张，你没有那个自由去做应该做的事
这个世界不允许你突然消失，你没有那个自由去好好地沉淀检讨
这个世界不允许你拖慢别人，你没有那个自由去思考研究创作
这个世界不允许你背负伤感，你没有那个自由去花时间放声哭泣
这个世界不允许你缅怀过去，你没有那个自由去抢救历史回忆
这个世界不允许你走个人路，你没有那个自由去一个人横冲直撞
这个世界不允许你温柔感性，你没有那个自由去嫌弃他人粗心

世界，很大
它认定了你的自作主张
它生气了你的突然消失
它责怪了你的拖慢别人
它阻止了你的背负伤感
它嘲笑了你的缅怀过去
它局限了你的走个人路
它摧毁了你的温柔感性

我们都是活在这个世界上的少数人
很难很难会再遇上同一群的少数人
但这个世界还是需要有这么一群少数人
才能让世界朝向平衡、七彩缤纷、高潮迭起

有一种与生俱来的使命感
藏在内心某个不曾被唤醒的地方
任我怎么联络也无法接上它的频率

世界太大，我太渺小
很想就这样放弃自己
很想就这样随风飞行
可是我更想留住自己

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20
Accumulated a body of tired, stress and depress.
I know the weird thing is happening but I pretend don't know at all.

21
Celebrated her birthday. Finally we meet again. Happy although I am not really can remember the night.
Presentation mistyped "cake shop" into the slides. Laughed by my lovely lecturer.

22
Play truant. Finished IM assignment and conducted the board game. Finally released the stress.
She says I am very serious.
They give me a nickname and sing a song to me. I prefer to shut down all my sensitivity.

23
Will be a brand new day. Preparing for 24's come.

It Not Easy Being Yourself

The professor from the University of Liverpool asked us a lot of questions.
Why does the sustainable development involve the conversion of the agriculture land into other uses?
Why do you promote international sustainable tourism? if international, how will it be sustainable?
How do you divide your planning blocks? The divisions are divided by you all or due to other reasons?
Could you ever see the boundary in the real world?
What is the regional context? What about the national context?
It is a very comprehensive plan, but what are the practical aspects you are going to do?
What?
Why?
How?
.
.
.
.
.
It's not easy being myself.
These questions I have mentioned during the meetings.
Now they appear again from the mouth of a foreigner...

Not easy...
But satisfy...
Will keep on being myself...

Take It Easy

Mummy called.
Asked me not to join them.
No, I am extremely busy now.

Cried but she doesn't know.
She kept on making jokes with me.
Laughing me already forgot my elder sister.
Laughing me at not having enough money.
Laughing me at not seeking money back...

Mummy, I am in stress.
I didn't tell her.

Don't forgot to eat ya.
Take care ya.

Don't worry.
Although I am very worry on the coming of tomorrow...

沉默的反击 Attack Silently

不曾如此感到惊慌。
第六感告诉我那里有不寻常的共识在秘密地酝酿着
是针对我的

笑脸背后，我看到讥笑
关心背后，我看到讽刺
好心背后，我看到丑恶
完成背后，我看到垃圾

对不起，是我的错
是我想太多
是我太严格
是我拖太慢
是我太随性

不管未来怎样
我坚持自己的立场
是一种顽固
是要求有水准
是不管大队往东走，我还是会尝试走去西看看，
为的是有得比较，也开拓了视野，说不定会有新发现。

若你问我这个学期最大的收获是什么
是学习在有限的空间快速成长，以及抵抗四面楚歌的那种压力

我只是差在手脚缓慢
而不是差在学习态度
更不是差在勇于尝试
勇于犯错勇于承担......

利害 The Bad Cooperation

Finished early but copy and paste
我坚持先读完，后删减，还有检查语法，尽管他们讲随便做就可以了。

Utilized but escape away when in need.
我欣赏她快速划清界限，我喜欢她的神速。

Friendly but spread the bad news of others.
有料？没有料？有好处就有料，没好处就造谣。

For the marks? Self-protect?
分数？拖累？启动自我保护？

24-hour be alert. Be prepare for any changes.
要时时保持清醒，不然给人干掉都不知发生了什么事。

Will know a person after a period of time.
日久见人心。可是请不要绝望。要做好自己，必要时可以不随波逐流。

Bad cooperation.
But never give up.
利害。
果然厉害。

看到了他 Meet The Person Finally

他约了我。
我们吃了晚餐。

说着说着，有股冲动就这样很放心地哭泣。
没有，他看到我忍到很辛苦，于是他鼓励了我。

你看，这些天，我就是这样压抑地度过。
我是不会轻易放弃的。
因为你的简单一句话，总是能够让我坚强起来。
我需要的原来不是你的任何一句话，而是你的陪伴。

我们都在倒数着。
到底我们还剩多少时间
到底我们还能累积多少回忆

那份惊喜，都为你付出了最大的努力
希望你珍惜

整个人轻松了很多
你以为我忘记星期二
嘻嘻，并没有！

报案指警方滥权却反被指造谣 立薇昨晚遭内安令扣留！

就在朝野党团大力鞭挞内安法令之际，警方在昨晚再度原因内安法令，扣留一名被指散播虚假消息的社运活跃人士。

26岁的人民之声新山分会志工钟立薇，昨晚约10点45分在斯里阿南警区总部录完口供后，遭警方援引《1960年内安法令》第28条文扣留。

陪同钟立薇前往警局录取口供的社会主义党中委朱信杰告诉《当今大马》，斯里阿南警区刑事调查主任莫哈末诺副警监（Mohd Nor）在警局向他证实，警方是援引上述条文扣留钟立薇。

朱信杰表示，莫哈末诺也透露，警方将立即将她带往巴西古当警局扣留，直到明日再带她前往新山中区警局申请延长扣留。至于为何内安法令允许无审讯扣留，警方却还要在明日申请延长扣留令，莫哈末诺没有详加解释。

民主行动党士姑来州议员巫程豪接受《当今大马》电询时也表示，他获悉此事后立即致电柔州警长莫达（Mokhtar Shariff）与斯里阿南警区主任鲁斯兰（Roslan Zainuddin），两人都向他证实钟立薇是在内安法令第28条文下遭扣留。

来自警方的消息表示，只有钟立薇一人被扣，预料警方不会进一步逮捕其他人。


报案指警方滥权反被控造谣 女社运分子遭内安法令扣留
钟立薇傍晚保释外出 民青团再促废内安法
钟立薇完成保释步出警局 11月1日推事庭面对提控

感谢你让我放心忙功课 Thank You for Assisting Me

可以想像没有你在的话，我会怎么办。
一定会被他骂到臭头。
一定会被他丢进黑名单。

幸亏有你。
幸福ing......

希望今天的你，还有你们
可以用手感受它的存在。

他有来过 He Came

今早十点是他土归土的时间。
我们在presentation.

“你觉得他有来看我们吗？”
“我觉得有咯！”

“希望大家记得今天。他归了土，而我们也完成了我们的presentation。”
“相信他看到我们今天的表现会很欣慰的。”

看到他和她 He and She Together

看到他和她
看到他开心
看到她开心
他她都开心
我也很开心

Saw He and She
He is happy
She is happy
They are happy
I am also happy

搞不清楚 Not Really Understand

for understanding or confidence?
骄傲轻敌 = 失败？
保守 vs 敢梦
本土化 vs 国际性
分组 vs 融合
BP vs District
同舟共济 vs 容许异议
态度
discussion with readings
limited by limited minds
lists of works
save the trees, print when necessary
领导 vs 组员

临危不乱？ Be Steady?

我越做越发现很多不对劲的地方。
时间所剩不多，必须熬夜准备打战。

要客观分析。
要客观分析。
再客观分析。

我感受到她的不友善。她不接受我的论点。
不是生气她，而是我说的是事实，我不是在逞强什么。
这是国际性的旅游胜地，多数人都会选择在那里过夜。
望南走，不一定非得以最南端为终点。
我们的那里，本来就是南边。
还有，那条路线并非是大多数人的路线。
发现很多时候规划员常常都很自以为是，自High自爽，必要时自我催眠。

我要准备跟讲师们进行争论，必要时还要按住良心保护我方。
明天危机重重，该如何让自己保持临危不乱呢？
还是说，他们才是那些需要补救我的乱的人呢？